My name is Chelsea

From the outside looking in, I had everything together. I had just bought my first home. I was at the beginning of an exciting career as a lawyer, I was making a great living, and doing all the things I thought I “should” be doing.

Until I started to realize that the things I felt I “should” be doing were completely disconnected from what I truly wanted. Two years into the process, the monotony of stress, exhaustion, and pressure I put on myself was catching up. On a random Tuesday morning I stepped out of the shower and all of a sudden was on my bathroom floor. I couldn’t breathe. I was sobbing and gasping for air. I was 27 years old and was having an anxiety attack before 6:30AM.

I had to be in the office with a crisp suit and smile on my face within the hour. I literally didn’t have time to deal with my own mental health. I realized at this moment everything had to change. Which was incredibly scary and overwhelming.

I didn’t know where to begin to start unraveling my decisions. But I knew that every day I kept putting my suit on and making believe everything was “OK”, I was squelching my dreams of a life of travel, of rich relationships, of financial abundance, and personal health and wellness. I made believe it was “fine” to be sitting at a desk every day, in an office with a view, with no time to pursue any of my passions. I felt guilty because I felt like I should be grateful.

One of the hardest parts of deciding to make a change was giving myself permission to try again. To admit that I had gotten off track somewhere. I realized life is too short to try to make the “shoulds” of life feel “fine.” I had dreams of the life I wanted to pursue “someday” - and decided to start working on a vision and action plan sooner rather than later.

Over the past 6 years I have been on a journey of finding my true path personally and professionally. I have had to dump the contents of my life out onto the rug and put only the pieces back in the box that are in alignment with my true self. As I look back, there are three phases of what I had to reformulate.

I am open, ready, and willing to receive a life filled with purpose, love, abundance, travel, and health.

I didn’t realize that somewhere along the way I had allowed my mind to adopt negative and unhealthy patterns. I had fallen into a “misery loves company” complacent mindset and hadn’t even noticed. I had to intentionally retrain my mind to focus on the positive, to dream again, and to create my life more purposefully. I had to stop worrying about what I “should” be doing and really get to know what mattered most to me. I immersed myself in personal and professional development trainings, started to discipline myself around morning and evening routines, let myself explore new avenues and career options, and fell back in love with things that used to matter most to me (travel, fitness, spontaneity, and laughing until my belly hurts).

As I started filling my mind with positive and helpful information - I started to realize there was no room for the negativity and anxiety that had been filling my thoughts before. I was ready to start creating a new action plan and mastering new skills I would need to become the person and business woman I wanted to become. I found that my skills from my legal career could translate well into more entrepreneurial endeavors that excited me, and learned about the profession of network marketing. I became fascinated with learning how to create a career and income that would allow me time and geographic freedom. I slowly shifted more focus onto my part-time home-based business until I could afford to throw myself fully into working for myself.

I didn’t realize that somewhere along the way I had allowed my mind to adopt negative and unhealthy patterns. I had fallen into a “misery loves company” complacent mindset and hadn’t even noticed. I had to intentionally retrain my mind to focus on the positive, to dream again, and to create my life more purposefully. I had to stop worrying about what I “should” be doing and really get to know what mattered most to me. I immersed myself in personal and professional development trainings, started to discipline myself around morning and evening routines, let myself explore new avenues and career options, and fell back in love with things that used to matter most to me (travel, fitness, spontaneity, and laughing until my belly hurts).I am so much closer to living the life of my dreams.

Finally I have found a profession that encourages personal development, allows me to make my own schedule and travel to beautiful places, pays me based on the effort I put in, and surrounds me with amazing mentors on a daily basis. I am in a loving relationship, and even get to work alongside family members, new friends, and old friends.

I hope that from my story you can truly begin to believe that the life you want is out there - you just have to admit that you are done with “fine,” and move through the resistance that is holding you back. I did. My survival rate is 100% so far.

A quote from the book “The War of Art” by Steven Pressfield sums it up:
“Most of us have two lives. The life we live, and the unlived life within us. Between the two stands Resistance.”